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![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) _homicidelove
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[21 Aug 2004|02:34am] |
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*my last day*
today was my last day.and no alex in sight.i was suppose to go on his fucking boat.i had to do my shit scuba diving test.
he wouldn't answer his phone when i got home so i just went over sophie's house.((yes,i cried about no being able to see him))we called him and he got all pissed we were gonna meet some guys.it was wierd.
i talked to him on the phone while his fucking high friends were over and he said to me "shit,im sorry i can't speak to you properly with these faggets around i can't be all 'i love you' mushy shit.i dont wanna be a pussy" i thought it was funnie.his friend was like "its ohk alex,we know your feelings man..let it out"god i will miss him.we go out.final
thats that.long distance.alex+melody=relationship.god i love him.my plane leaves at 3pm today....its 2:41am right now.i hope i can see him tomorrow.he wants my "virgin bracelettes" and i want his bermuda sex shirt.((fare trade i say))
( last night with alex.gets kinda confusing cause we were on the phone too,plus his gay ass friends and him were high )
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[20 Aug 2004|07:11am] |
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*another sad day*
today is my last day here.i NEVER want to leave.and if
i don't see him tonite,i have no 2nd chance.today is it.
tomorrow is a plane.i feel so dumb to say i love someone only
after exactly a week of knowing them,but i swear i do.i will
try so hard not to cry in front of him.((but i want to))
it figures the best thing that has happened to me is only
temporary.
( last night on msn with alex )
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[19 Aug 2004|07:51am] |
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*last night*
last night was suppose to be awsome...that is not the case.i got thier late.i met courtney((she is a whore))she was trying to get alex's attention all night.((she didn't get
it))he basically laughed at her.sophie and courtney ran off
form drew,me and alex.they wanted to find them.i didn't.
alex met up with his other friends...and thats when he let go of my hand.then i left with drew to go "find" sophie.we just walked around.in the park earlier alex fucking rejected
me.((i don't want to get specific...not sex))when drew and i came back...magically courtney and sophie we're found!with fucking alex.i left.
*later that night*
later he IMed me on msn.we talked it all out.w/e.he said he
wants to "be my boyfriend".how can he?im LEAVING!he explained to me all of the reasons behind his actions.i no longer wish to care.he wants me to go out with him tonight. i will...because im dumb. :)
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[18 Aug 2004|08:45am] |
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its only been 5 days
and i fucking love him.last night was w o n d e r ful he met my grandmother ((i think she scared him)) he had to were some gay ass golf shirt to coverup the one he was wearing that said "bermuda sex triangle...you have sex and get lost".i love it.he said i could have.he took//i gave him a whole bunch of my "virgin" braceletts you dont break them here.
i talked to him about shit and god i love him.i got a pic to
show people i wasnt hulucinating.
tonight is harbor night,and were gonna run fucking wild.
he held my hand and told me i was "awsome"...
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friends only...comment and add me and i'll add you.
i was enviousxbunnie
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my heart beat.